God’s Plans Are Wrecking Mine

What’s one way you might be rationalizing sin and running from God?

I’m listening to this on my lunch break. And wow. I brought the storm on myself. Ten years ago I dated a man who was separated but not divorced.

First God warned me. I’d always loved sparrows. They always reminded me that God notices everything. We’re not insignificant to Him. Two weeks into dating this man I opened my front door and there was a dead sparrow on the path. The next day I was walking my dog, and there was another dead sparrow. A few days later, another dead sparrow in my driveway. You’d have thought I’d have stopped what I was doing because I “knew” what God was doing. I kept dating the guy.

Approximately 20 years earlier I’d come so close to death that my family were called in to my hospital room to say goodbye. My heart was failing and blood thinners weren’t stopping me from making blood clots. And God miraculously healed me. 1:30am I was in so much pain and I cried and asked Him to heal me. Instantly, and I mean instantly, I felt a pair of hands either side of my legs, and they moved down to my feet. No more blood clots, no more pain. And the crazy thing is that despite surgeries etc, I’d never had another blood clot. Until December 2014.

Still dating the guy. About to have surgery for a cosmetic issue. Something weird shows up in my blood work. They scan my legs and they find a blood clot in a vein that’s called a “widow maker”. It got that name because it’s highly likely that any clot there will move to the lungs. And I didn’t know I had it!

I listened that time. But had to deal with mental health issues based in fear and medical protocols to make sure I didn’t die.

God loved me enough to scare the heck out of me. I was Jonah. And there are days when I’m still Jonah. And we all have those.

If you’re reading this, and I have a feeling someone is, and you’re in a relationship that you “know” is wrong, please ask God for the following:

Ask Him to show you if you love the person or if you’re addicted to the person. He’ll answer that prayer.

Here’s the deal. If you truly love God, and you can’t walk away from a relationship that breaks His heart, your self-esteem is in the toilet. Because it’s not based on God, it’s based on someone wanting you.

Ask Him to destroy (not just take away) any feelings that you have for that person. The feelings that you have aren’t from God. God wouldn’t allow His children to “love” someone if loving meant they would sin.

Satan wraps up things from the pit of hell so beautifully that we think they’re from God. And when Satan hands the item to you, he makes sure you feel so lousy about yourself, you’re grateful to receive the item that is basically a GPS tracker from hell. Keep the item, Satan can sit back, relax and watch your every move with approval.

It broke me to let that person go. I didn’t know how lonely I was. And I had to sit with myself in the loneliness and feel like garbage for a while. But then peace came. Followed by hope, followed by rock solid self esteem.

I’m not the same woman who dated that man. I’m free in every way. And if you’re me from ten years ago, please let God remove the chains and set you free ❤

Read jonah chaptervers17 chapter2 vers 2 vers1_3.read the book of luke chapter11 vers 29,,_30

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It’s finances. It’s always finances. God show me how to reverse the desire for safety in my finances, so that I can grow in faith.

5:01 the audible Oooooh I made 😂

I am turning my life to you Lord jesus.

I am turning my life over to Jesus.

Asking GOD to show me 🙌🏼

Down!!!!!

I surrender Lord

I'm turning my life over to Jesus christ.

Jesus you are the King of my life, and the King of the world 🌎 there's nothing more rewarding than serving You 🩷

down! down! down!

But by letting people get of free themselves for really bad harming others destroying others sin.then yes He loves them.but doesnt love those who they sinned against who were tortured etc and harmed.

When I surrendered to Christ in 2016! God put it on my heart to pursue a degree in Biblical studies with the intent to become a pastor. In 2018, my wife got diagnosed with dementia sending our family spiraling out of control. 8 years later a career change, pursing a masters degree in pastoral counseling, broken, and my life has went a totally different direction from what I thought. God's plans are always different from ours. Psalm 32:8

God show me area sin ets disobedience etc

Thank you God help me guide me show me and Strengthen me